anyway, since it's all about me (take that Luke), i just wanna say that last night i forced myself to watch the Naudet Brothers' 9/11 flick, shown over 2,5 hours with only four breaks for adverts. i believe this was already on in the States; it's the one with Robert DeNiro doing the intro and some other narration. if you saw it already, quit reading now cause i have absolutely nothing new to add. but if y'all don't know, the Naudets just happened to be making a documentary on NYC firefighters and were assigned to Engine 7 Ladder 1 (WTC area) in early July 2001. then they ended up taking the only existent footage of the first impact, while it was happening, but later for that.
the following are my notes, at least the ones i can read today, which all were frantically and illegibly scribbled cause i just couldn't take it and was drinking my head off, et al.
i'm gonna skip the set-up in which they chose this one young fire-dude, so the Naudets could focus on him for their original story. anyway, fast forward to the evening of 10. september. we see absolutely beautiful footage of the WTC sh0t at sunset. gah, do i ever hate 'irony in retrospect' although that's been the story of my life (yes i know i'm veering off-topic here. i blame the ADD, actually). irony in retrospect is a pisser, apart from when it's not. anyway.
OK, the first adverts came on after the initial 25 minutes. good timing as i was about to scream after seeing the Towers in all their early evening long-shadowed glory. (nb: i hated them and all they stood for, before this.) took another V to calm my heart-rate, anxiety levels, frustration and to quit with the fucking weeping. and i'll take this opportunity to say that i'd like it to be known that i don't cry cause of what happened on Th' Day That Changed Ever'thin'. i cry for US all; for what's been done to US since then. had my second cVcV.
um, i don't think i can watch the rest of this. just sayin'. shit, it's back, along with my increasingly messed-up handwriting. early morning on 11. september and the Naudets were out with the firefighters and took some beautiful footage of the WTC on that gorgeous, clear-skied day. they're standing around, talking shit and all and then you hear this immense BOOM! an immediate pan up the WTC to the first burning tower and we can see Flight 11 still up there. many, many voices going 'holy shit' which, for some strange reason, were left in. but they bleeped out all the 'fucks.' i guess we in the UK got the cleaned-up, totally morally-approved US version. whatever.
then total chaos (apart from the firefighters) and thousands and thousands running wild in the streets. close-up footage of the burning Towers interspersed with the streets flooded with the thousands fleeing, some of whom are wounded and some of whom are covered in thick white dust. i feel ill again. then there's some overlaid original radio and TV news commentary, trying to describe the initial reactions and what the fuck is going on.
then the film alternated once again between the camera tilting back and forth between the WTC and the freaked out people on the street. most frequent comment: 'This is not happening...' i believe that, just about this time, the preznit mentioned he'd seen this first impact happen on TV before he read The Pet Goat, so all must've been good in the hood, at least with him. but i digress.
and then another tremendous BOOM and Naudet caught the second aeroplane hit. more wild in the streets: total fucking bedlam; incredulous faces, horror and fear but the best thing was the sense of community. Naudet caught strangers helping strangers, allowing others to use their cellphones and assisting the wounded down the street to the ambulances and medics present, all while introducing themselves to each other.
back to the lobby where the firefighters were stationed. and then we get to hear the sounds of falling bodies which were incredibly fucking loud as they hit the sidewalks just outside the lobby windows. each time that happened, there were these exchanged, horrified looks. one fire dude: 'How bad is it up there if the better option is to jump?'
then the screen went black. more adverts, another V and yet another cVcV. *to self* and thanks to Bart Simpson, i want my Flintstones Chewable Morphine, goddammit.
it's back --- the reason the screen went black is cause the South Tower collapsed, totally flooring Naudet et al. some radio or TV dude: 'it was 10,25. firefighters were standing in the shadow of Tower 1.' and then, KA-BOOM. we can see the camera's POV, lying on the floor and then going like haywire in the additional confusion which followed. he was forced to wipe his lens off many times, many many times.
20,32: first mention of the Travis Bickle of NYC mayors, Rudy G. then i passed out. note to the preznit: i wanna watch this with you and pause it at the good parts, y'know, to discuss. then i wanna interview your ass, goddamnit to hell.